Tuesday, November 07, 2006

If I thought the heartbeat was the most magical sight I had ever seen, I was wrong. Today we saw two arms, two legs, and one rather large head. The crumb even performed for us, waving its little arms and bopping its head. I had no idea it was moving around so much in there. It measured right on track at 9w3d with a heart rate of 175 bpm.

I never thought this day would come. This day when we felt we might really have a chance, that this might actually work. Don't get me wrong, I'm not rushing out to buy a crib and highchair, but this is certainly more hopeful than we have ever been.

All through this journey, I never let myself daydream about having children. I never pictured myself holding my baby or taking my child to his first day of school. I never imagined first steps, first words, bedtime kisses, or morning smiles. It was simply too painful.

But now I can start to see it. Just little glimpses, snatches of the future. The curl of a lock of hair, the dimples on a knee, the warmth of another being against my chest. I can start to see it. I can start to see my family.

23 Comments:

At November 07, 2006 3:42 PM, Blogger Jess said...

OH MY GOSH, I am SO happy that you posted. I just read your last post not that awfully long ago and was so worried.

But this is wonderful news, just wonderful! :)

 
At November 07, 2006 3:46 PM, Anonymous amanda said...

Yay!!! What fabulous news. I'm very happy for you.

 
At November 07, 2006 4:15 PM, Anonymous Watson said...

PHEW!

Thank God I read this post first and then the one you wrote yesterday, so I wasn't worried about you and knew the story had a happy ending!

What a relief -- that ultrasound must have been the most beautiful sight ever.

I'm so happy for you, Sube, it does sound like everything is falling into place for you and J.

:-)

 
At November 07, 2006 5:03 PM, Blogger Plain Jane Mom said...

Excellent news!!

 
At November 07, 2006 5:08 PM, Blogger Suzanne said...

Great news!

 
At November 07, 2006 5:17 PM, Anonymous Ms.Once said...

Ah, those amazing hands that work like, well, human hands. It really is incredible. SO glad you got such good news today about the little crumb. It IS strange, isn't it, how active they are long before we can fully sense it. Hooray for hoping, daydreaming, believing.

 
At November 07, 2006 5:23 PM, Blogger GLouise said...

THRILLED for you.

 
At November 07, 2006 5:49 PM, Blogger fisher queen said...

'The crumb'. I love it!

 
At November 07, 2006 7:39 PM, Blogger Kris said...

Oh, God, Sube! I was thinking of you all day... I am so happy for you!

 
At November 07, 2006 8:20 PM, Blogger Krista said...

Oh Sube, I am so very happy for you. I don't get another peek until 11 weeks but I am excited to know how "baby-like" it could be by then.

Congratulations, I am glad yesterday's scare is over.

 
At November 08, 2006 2:59 AM, Blogger StellaNova said...

That's so wonderful. It must be such a warm and heartening feeling. I hope I can get there myself someday.

 
At November 08, 2006 7:04 AM, Blogger soralis said...

So glad to hear that things are going well.

Enjoy

 
At November 08, 2006 8:49 AM, Blogger Thalia said...

Oh how fabulous, particularly after what happened on MOnday. Congratulations.

 
At November 08, 2006 9:12 AM, Blogger Hopeful Mother said...

I am so happy for you (and relieved, of course!)

 
At November 08, 2006 9:42 AM, Blogger Murray said...

How wonderful! That's really awesome!

 
At November 09, 2006 12:28 AM, Blogger Lut C. said...

I don't know if you'll ever relax completely, but having hope for a positive outcome will help you through all the waiting. I'm glad the crumb gave you every reason to be hopeful.

 
At November 09, 2006 4:18 AM, Anonymous Nikole said...

Wonderful news! It must be an amazing sight.

xoxo

 
At November 09, 2006 6:14 AM, Blogger MoMo said...

Oh Sube...this is the best thing I've read in a really long time. I am so excited for you. Just wait until you start feeling the baby...it is the most unreal thing. I am so happy for you and J. Sending you a big hug!

 
At November 09, 2006 8:22 AM, Blogger Heather said...

Amazing! I'm so happy for you!!!

 
At November 09, 2006 6:22 PM, Blogger Amy said...

I am so glad that the ultrasound went well. I know how scary it is to see blood, even if it is brownish. Seeing the baby always makes things better. I'm really happy that things are going well. Soon enough you'll be able to feel the baby kicking!

 
At November 10, 2006 7:51 AM, Blogger Just another Jenny said...

That is awesome news Sube! Ultrasounds are the best.

 
At November 10, 2006 4:09 PM, Blogger electriclady said...

I am so happy for you, Sube. Hope is a beautiful thing.

 
At November 13, 2006 9:09 AM, Blogger Beagle said...

I'm glad that it's starting to feel real!

Great update.

 

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